Upon Looking Past You into the Mattress into the Faces of Prior Lovers

I travel past your lashes and tear duct to enter in passed the cornea and finally

into the pupil.

I consider the puddles caused by the tears leaving your eyes

And think about time passing.

As long as I keep my eyes focused, I keep the morning from coming.

They begin to burn and tear, longing for a single blink.

I gaze, switching back and forth from your left eye to your right.

Counting the 47 eyelashes on the upper lid on the left side.

They say that silence is a good indicator of how comfortable you are with someone.

The silence between us is deafening.

Your eyes begin to shut, and our contact is severed.

I curl up the pillow into a hardened ball and rest my head above my hands.

You’re beautiful even as you sleep.

What lines the contours of your body create.

Savor this moment.

I worry when the sun makes its way passed the sill and through the cracked blinds of the window, you will be gone like the others.

when I watch the lashes graze

your cheek bone I force myself to believe otherwise.

the seconds seem like hours as my eyes burn even more.

now I cant wait to sleep

so I can dream about you.